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Tuesday, July 13, 2010 @ 11:47 PM

let the sunflowers die in front of you

hello blog i feel so emo now. hahahah what was i thinking? okay maybe just a lil bit. because i cant stand live breathing creatures!!!! One after another man. can i just use an axe to like chop their heads off?? im happy because my friendship with her is okay again. not like last time, but its somewhat okay now. \m/ knuckle touch. one after another piling up to the peak of problem-ism. whatever. i dont give a damn. RANK DOES NOT MATTER PART Cs. <3

honeybees~

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Monday, July 12, 2010 @ 10:42 PM

Say it one more time

School and world cup does not goes together. What more ethnic is that Spain won. Whatever. Its just an empty cup. I really don't feel that good for the past week. Thanks those guys who cheered me up a lil. You people are so warm and funny. Especially Na'em and Afiq. Hahahaha.

Okay i am not going to give a damn bout my language anymore, this is my blog and i am free to say what i feel. And i say that the people around me are literally changing. Seriously. Everyone, everyone is changing. And even tho i displease it, i must survive with it somehow. Why is this happening to me. I just wish for someone to actually recognise me for who i am and for once just feel what i am feeling. for once can i just get out of that shoe ive been living in for the past 15 years?? Ive been sacrificing so much time for people and actually abandoning myself for my own needs. I hate myself sometimes. But people just dont know that. Its hurtful, to know that your friends actually talk behind yr back, not confronting you the reality youre in. its just so wrong.

I had kayaking training today and for the whole time ive been there, i feel like im a dump who lives right at the bottom of the sea with the sand and little seashells floating by. After the handover ceremony, i dont knw why they seemed so different. Yes, a lot wished it would be atiqa and not me. You see, they gave us our post of certain reasons, not only bout conduct in school or attendance, its more than that. Ya Allah, if only you allow them to see what im going thru now.

I just really really feel someone would just know how i feel right now. Thanks Ataff afiqah, for your advices. Yes i love to be otp with you~ youre so funny. Haha. I am so tired and nothing seemed pleased for me now. Getting a new phone, any suggestions? your suggestions will be taken under considerations. thanks.

School drool fool. I miss mt.kinabaluers. Xoxo.

(please dont get offended of my posts. thats my say and im just to chicken out to say it.)

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Wednesday, July 7, 2010 @ 6:03 PM

Turning saints into the sea

Okay so i finally updated my blog. Sorry blog, for not updating you for sucha long time! School have fuckingly started. and my elearning is incomplete!!!!!!! someone take my soul away. Can i wish to be literally invisible so i can see whats happening in my daily life? I am pin down with incomplete homeworks and i turned my organizer into my daily dairy now. Pahang trip was okay. I expected more. but i enjoyed caving most of all. I got 3SG! i agree with dreamndie of whats the mothafcuking point of having 2SG if you are unable to control the unit well? huh? huh? huh? Okay wtv. Celebrated Iqa's belated birthday on monday, as Apit had his own plans on that day. I was not aware that she will be thr. Lucky me that i did not follow'em. Birthday girl was 15 min late for her movie. Hakim,farhana&me treated her to a movie ticket/a cake and farhana got her a helium balloon. Iqa, please treasure your carebear keychain because its from a special person in your life. okay wtv 'Aisyah. Omg how do i rephrase this, i miss that somebodddyyyyyyyy. I met him the other day. total unexpected. omg. iqa&farhana&hakim, huuuuuush! omg. ♥.♥

okay i bloghopped and now i became more and more hatred towards her. She stared at me in school just now. wtv okay. i am not afraid of you! && your secret is so goddamn obvious if you hadnt notice. Sorry people, if you happened to hang around her, i may just seem to despise you tooooo....................

(sea comp here i come)

happy 15th birthday Nurul Atiqa ♥

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