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Monday, July 12, 2010 @ 10:42 PM

Say it one more time

School and world cup does not goes together. What more ethnic is that Spain won. Whatever. Its just an empty cup. I really don't feel that good for the past week. Thanks those guys who cheered me up a lil. You people are so warm and funny. Especially Na'em and Afiq. Hahahaha.

Okay i am not going to give a damn bout my language anymore, this is my blog and i am free to say what i feel. And i say that the people around me are literally changing. Seriously. Everyone, everyone is changing. And even tho i displease it, i must survive with it somehow. Why is this happening to me. I just wish for someone to actually recognise me for who i am and for once just feel what i am feeling. for once can i just get out of that shoe ive been living in for the past 15 years?? Ive been sacrificing so much time for people and actually abandoning myself for my own needs. I hate myself sometimes. But people just dont know that. Its hurtful, to know that your friends actually talk behind yr back, not confronting you the reality youre in. its just so wrong.

I had kayaking training today and for the whole time ive been there, i feel like im a dump who lives right at the bottom of the sea with the sand and little seashells floating by. After the handover ceremony, i dont knw why they seemed so different. Yes, a lot wished it would be atiqa and not me. You see, they gave us our post of certain reasons, not only bout conduct in school or attendance, its more than that. Ya Allah, if only you allow them to see what im going thru now.

I just really really feel someone would just know how i feel right now. Thanks Ataff afiqah, for your advices. Yes i love to be otp with you~ youre so funny. Haha. I am so tired and nothing seemed pleased for me now. Getting a new phone, any suggestions? your suggestions will be taken under considerations. thanks.

School drool fool. I miss mt.kinabaluers. Xoxo.

(please dont get offended of my posts. thats my say and im just to chicken out to say it.)

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