hi hi hi. i feel like blogging. Senior Specialist Course this weekend. im so so scared. What if i cant pass out as a SSG? omg. my grades grades grades. why are you so low? why are you being so defiant against me? i know ive neglect the time on studying. okay whatever. its my fault. Sometimes, i feel like texting him. then again he could be busy with other things 'slash' people. Who knows. Has only been a week now and i dont know whats happening. how now brown cow. ive been feeling = :/ i dont know lah. up to that person lah. The only thing im amused is that he could make me laugh whenever im down or angry. hahah. Let's slap his face.

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hi, i am sleepy yet i can't sleep. I myself am wondering what's on my mind thats stopping me from sleeping. I am jealous with those are already asleep. 


hi. WHY IS MY FONT SO SO SO SMALL?! ITS DAMN IRRITATING. OMG. Anyway, i had fun today. i laughed a lot. Even tho Feirziana was the only odd one out, i still love today. It would be more fun if the others could make it. I miss Feirziana so so much. Heh.I realized most of the guys I've been with are much more handsome now. Ha-Ha. Time flew so fast. Yay, one-year singlehood already. Im so proud of myself. I vow to myself that i don't wish to be involve in any relationship and i succeed for a year already. *pats on my shoulder*


Break fast @ Simei Banquet. All of us had Western Food. Fish&chips never disappoints. Geylang was packed with people when we were there. I despise that place now. Reached home so so so late. Mummy weren't home for no reason and my friend was angry for i don't know what reasons either. Okay I went blanked. Heh. I enjoyed myself today. Considering another outing soon. (L)


Thanks to Feirziana, Apit bestie, Na'em, Syafiq & Fitri


tagline for the day by Fitri&Apit bestie: " Aku paling cute lah." (which means, im the cutest.) and " Aku paling important di sini. " (which means, im the most important here.)

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hi. i am going to break my fast with my ex-yuminians today today today. i cannot wait. i think im so pathetic because

• i broke down in front of my two maams yest.
• i cannot be a good CSM.
• my time management sucks.
• ive no time for my own needs
• ive no time for mt.k family (OMG I MISS THEM)
• my grades went down
• i can count my friends by my fingers.
• i am always the one caring bout others.(i wish it could be the other way round for once!)
• i have not start thinking of raya.
• i have not start studing for eoy
• i hate my life.

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hi. its midnight and today was tiring. its just taking photos and more of waiting time. My body is weak i guess? naah, im not that type of person. i reckon its my brain. brain cells can go 'pop' if problematic kids surrounds me. I dont feel like coming to school tmr. i wanna rest my thinking organ for a day. may i mummy. i didnt know my blog have readers. okay hi readers. *waves* i wish everybody could stand in my position as the csm now. and face the problems instead of me. and solve the problems if they could. i feel like giving up. oh dear Allah, pls give me strength to overcome your challenges. okay. i wanna sleep. gooodnight.


hi blogger. i am so tired after yesterday's  activity at the mosque. i was a little bit pissed of the girl whom blames me for not warning her about the porridge tray that she laid in front of me. What is the use of the human chain when she go all the way to the kitchen area and back to the guys to pass the food tray to them. She was independent and helpful. Yes, but in an exaggerating manner i could say. Too obsessed by her generosity that she trip over the porridge tray in front of me and claimed that i was in the wrong of not warning her of so.


(before the incident)
girl: i put the tray here okay, you don't step the tray okay.
me: why would i step on food right?
girl: ya im just telling, don't step okay.


(after incident)
girl:why you never warn me got the tray?
me: youre the one who put it there.
girl: but you could warn me.
me: whats the use of the human chain if youre not using it?
girl: (look so pissed and walks away)


she didnt even take the initiative to wipe the spilled porridge off the ground. i was the one doing it. Furthermore, she didnt even thanked me for my graciousness. Some people are of such nuisance. They could be too kind but overreacting too.


Anyway readers, i was happy most of the time whenever i checked my tagged messages. I would always laugh whenever reading my messages. He never fails. @unicornswithfangs:i wanna cut my hair too. Any suggestions readers?
Hi mum, i like to point out people who misspell 'disappoints'.  

i love my new phone! thanks to mummy dearest! xoxo.

Imma live like there's no tomorrow. (munching on gummy bears and slurpy now)

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Just gonna stand thr and watch me cry. But thats alright because i love the way you lie. Dearest folks, im busy. Youre wasting your time here. just how i wasted my time waiting for karma to hit my enemies. 


Singapore turned 45 yesterday. I managed to catch the fireworks with nurfarhana. Shes been asking me to join the others. Im sorry but i don't want to. So what if she thinks her friends are better than us? So what if everybody is joining her cliques? So what if she didnt invite us to her outings? Arent her friends like our friends too? Ive told you girls before, she have changed. You judge if its for the better or worst. I simply thinks that our life is much more lovely than hers. Its more meaningful. No big deal. Your heart suffer pains, mine too. So cheer up dear friend,okay sha?  


This lil head of mine can't take anymore crazy behaviors. Everything im put to blame and no one give a damn bout it. Thumbs up.


Tomorrow is the first day of fasting month. Satan is gonna be imprison at the twelfth strike later at midnight.  Dear Allah, please give me the strength to overcome the fasting month with the mishap thats gonna happen. Show me that my life is worth all this while. Thanks. <3

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