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"Kill your enemies."(L)

Sunday, October 24, 2010 @ 3:14 PM

"and i just realised that i like being alone. lol i sound like im so deprived of social life.

i mean the hustle and bustle... the commotion.. the short-lived euphoria of being in the midst of e movers and shakers of e "internet world". its getting a bit too stale for me now. after what happened yesterday i realised that even the best of friends cannot be trusted and at the end of the day, only you can help yourself"

(via http://youheartjanny.blogspot.com/)

@ 2:44 PM

i have made a decision.

Happy birthday N I N I E. <3

okay. i have no idea why i am always the one being blame. when its not even my fault. why should i be the one where gets all the stressful responsibilities and when others like the PTIs and PS/APS or even my asm didnt gets it. why should it be me. I realize that im the csm and thats a lot of responsibility to take charge of but can i get at least some motivation or some help from my other platoon mates? i cant bear with these shits anymore. if im too harsh, you girls would go crying and complaining how bad i treated you girls. but have you part c ever thought how i am feeling? how hard your shits have been making me feel all this while? i dont get it why i need to deal with your problems and you people dont give a damn bout mine. unfair. and one of you passed two subjects only, same as me. for my situation, why did i failed? because you girls, you girls made me so stressed that i cant concentrate in my studies.

every maam and teachers expects highly of me. " oh shes the parade commander, oh shes the csm, oh shes holding the highest position, oh shes a great leader, oh shes a student leader. oh shes a sweet and kind girl. oh shes this, shes that. " i have an image to keep up with. i have my own needs. not only you bitch. and i dont see why you, who only passed two subjects would blame ncc for your grades when you spent your effing time with your boyfriend and your other girls whom you regard as friends. who are we right, we are long lost in your history. so tell me, is it fair now?

mum said, i have to sacrifice my leisure time in order to get my priorities straight. but hey, my job as a csm is easy you know, its just ensuring things are fine and report everything to maam.. but no, you girls made my life, my job, god damn hard. not planning schedules, dont know this, dont know that. dont know what to teach for lecture, PTIs/PS went m.i.a without telling me. and now how? i have to substitute for you? just because im the csm? let me tell you this. fuck you. because of you girls, my family, my life, my studies, my own needs are all affected. because of you girls. because of you 11 shits. come on, all for one, one for all right? so goodluck to you girls tmr. i want to make you all feel how i have been feeling all this while. im sorry, but i think its the best way. wait, no im not apologizing. im sorry for you 11 girls tmr. Note to self girls," all for one, one for all."

love,

Nurul'Aisyah.

(your company sargeant major)

Labels: good luck.

Sunday, October 17, 2010 @ 10:02 PM

Click me.

@ 7:49 PM

IVE CHANGED MY BILL NUMBER TO MY PREPAID NUMBER. KINDLY ASK IF YOU HAVE LOST IT. THANKS. <3